MY DREAM...

Ever had that feeling when you are not sure wether you are awake or still asleep? Dreaming the good love? That everything that's happening seems to good to be true? But the most f**ked up part is when you realise that it was a dream after all. It goes away when you finally wake up. But it felt so real that the feeling grips you and refuse to set you free. The pain is to unbearable. Knowing that you have tried so hard and you'd do anything to go back to sleep and live in that dream forever. But it seems now you've got Insomnia.
Its haunting. Every step that you take, the shadow from your dream is right behind you. But when you turn around to see, there's only a dark spot of uncertainty on the ground. And you'll ask yourself; "Why? Why are you following me if you'll never become real?. When will you release me? Let me be!". But then you realise, it is you! You want it so bad, you are not willing to let go of the dream. No! No! No! It's not a matter of will. You just can't. Unable to let go.
It's a sad state of mind and it's f**king depressing. But being a sad egoistic bastard, you refuse to get help. It's your problem. You handle it yourself! But the truth is, you are hopeless. You can't help it, no one can. You still want to go back to that dreamworld. You want it so bad, that you are refusing to dream about anything else. But come to think of it, a nightmare would take your mind off of it for a while. But still, when you wake up, the blood and slashes are gone, you'll go back to being haunted by that one dream you just can't stay in.
I WANNA GO TO SLEEP!!!!!