DAMNN!!!

It's been a while since my last post. No other reason, just LAYYYYZEEE....!!! It's the 4th week of my 5th semester and I'm still @#&%#&*. I got a lotta things at hand but I'm feeling down now. GRHHH....!!! What's happening to me? I just hate this feeling of being lonely. There's a lotta people around me but none of them is real. Everybody's so... PLASTIC including me. Everyday I went to class with no make up but still i manage a terrific fake smile. S**t!

Some people say it's ok to be selfish sometimes. If you want something so badly, screw friends! F**k brotherhood! Who cares? As long as you get what you want. But what's the meaning of success if you have no one to share it with? You'll just end up being something I hate most, a LONELY SON OF A B**CH! OK maybe you won't be lonely but you'll be left with your own kind. The kind of people who'll stab you in the back the first chance they get.

I still believe that the only way to a a real success is together. Where not everybody's a winner but everybody's happy. Is it possible or am I a total dreaming fool? Even some so called professionals are saying that money's more important than anything. But I still can't make up my mind. It's hard to give up my love for family, friends and arts for something so HAZARDOUS as MONEY!! And I don't think it's ok to hurt or use someone for your own happiness. So you hurt someone to feel good. To anybody's who's been living this kindda life, F**K YOU!! No matter how successful you become, you're still no taller than my ankle to me. I'll always look down on you. You don't deserve this life you're given. Drop dead!! But that's just me...

REAL S**T REALLY STINKS!!!